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Friday, August 20, 2004

Torture 101
I actually woke up early for Bio today. It didn't make the world stop spinning but it was a clear sign that something was not right. And indeed, missy jeeva didn't turn up. Seems she's sick on M.C. Hope she gets better but next time, INFORM US!!! so that we don't have to while away a perfectly good morning pretending to complete a past-year paper from Cambridge.

Oh, and I found out that for betty's chemlab today, I'm supposed to do some thermometric thingamajig with chemicals. For 2 hours!!! With a thermometer dipped in liquid!!! What the b100dY h311 is this world coming to? Oh, I forgot, it's normal for betty. Hmmm, looks like I'm gonna be the only one today... a one on one, oops, one to one session. But I think Paul "Peter Pettigrew" (however you spell that mousey name) is joining me... now that would really be a party... not! cue to insert self-pitying laugh here

Prisoner of Love
now for real torture that puts Abu Ghraib to shame

"she's in my dreams awake or sleeping"
Just the sight of *her* is but pure exquisite torture. But she is lovely, isn't she?

"my very life is in her keeping"
Why do I seem so listless on some days? Life without *her* is unthinkable...

"alone from night to night you'll find me"
...that's why I started this blog that night/predawn...

"too weak to break the chains that bind me"
...oh I'm lost in this vortex of my own making...

"i need no shackles to remind me"
"i can't have another for I'm not free"
...but it is a prison i built myself...
.....(freedom is but a PIN² prick away; if only *she* were PIN²).....

"i'm just a prisoner of love"
...if only *she* could understand.

"for one command I stand and wait now"
As though *she* even knows I exist?

"from one who's mistress of my fate now"
Really, now... not in a BDSM way...
it's my heart and soul (and mucked-up mind)
that she's mistress of!

"i can't escape for it's too late now"
Even though I built & designed this prison myself?
Sheesh! I really am lost in love...

"i'm just a prisoner of love"
Freud would Freak
if he had to counsel me
on how to get out of this.

and that was the real torture... torturous for you trying to read this!

Posted at 8/20/2004 11:40:10 am by nicholasaw

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Theme Song

In Love In Vain

(Leo Robin & Jerome Kern)

[click on the "play" button to hear
a low-res version of this song
by Dick Haymes & Helen Forrest. best played with mp3PRO decoder]

Love can be a blessing,
But also most depressing,
And I don't mind confessing
That I feel mighty Blue!

It's only human for anyone
To want to be in love
But who wants to be
In love in vain?

At night you hang around the house
And eat your heart out
And cry your eyes out
And wrack your brain.

You sit and wonder
Why anyone as wonderful as she
Should cause you such misery & pain
I thought that I would be in Heaven,

But I'm only up a tree
Cause it's just my luck to be
In love in vain!



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LOVE, n.
1. A temporary insanity curable by marriage or by removal of the patient from the influences under which he incurred the disorder. This disease, like caries and many other ailments, is prevalent only among civilized races living under artificial conditions; barbarous nations breathing pure air and eating simple food enjoy immunity from its ravages. It is sometimes fatal, but more frequently to the physician than to the patient.
- Ambrose Bierce

2. A man's insane desire to become a woman's meal-ticket.
- Gideon Wurdz

highlights

from the archives of nikbinolas

life

¤ julienne ¤

¤ lyrical living ¤

¤ film strip ¤

college

¤ KDU Wars ¤

my Malaysia

¤ MRR2 ¤

¤ Malaysian Studies ¤

¤ Beauty & The Info Minister ¤

who iswas *She *?

¤ prisoner of love ¤

¤ an even greater joy ¤

¤ some things i can't forget ¤

¤ cherish ¤

¤ who is *she*? ¤

¤ sadness/poetry ¤

¤ 2 references 2 *her* here! ¤

¤ screwy state of fugue ¤

¤ serenadable sad songs ¤

¤ after i heard her say "hello" ¤

¤ without *her* ¤

¤ the ghost of my past ¤

¤ s'wonderful! ¤

¤ rachel ¤

That's My Baby!

§ julie
murdered by her "mother"

See ~~Udders!~~ Others!
alphabetically listed, though
with no system unlike the
Dewey Decimal

§ @!p!nG "the insane"
old stimulating sparring partner; intellectual sparring, of course
§ antipixel
really nice pics
§ Bric.A.Brac Lynn!
Cuz Lynn
§ Daphne Wong
we were somehow linked once
§ Fat in/ Fa tin
how do you spell Fatin?
§ Hadiman
buddy in my med class
§ Jonathan Ho
"lazy" correspondent in Singapore
§ j.chew
macho man since std 1
§ Kristal
pretty in pastel pink from the philippines
§ Lyn -[OLD 1 ; 2]-
a touch of soft tooshies, courtesy of Wei-Lyn
§ My Little Lamb
Nicky HAD a Little Lamb, 'nuff said!
§ Myra
for a little Myrafication
§ PiN² -[OLD]-
Pin's pinnerific blog
§ poh imm
feller from lanchang days
§ primula.zy -[OLD]-
ol' buddy ol' pal now in N9
§ Rachi.L
"Let there be light!"
§ rENEe
she is not a banana! so she claims
§ Sarah MA
why do the lads Dub her 'barely legal'? heh
§ SiAN
Tasaday's nice neat layouts, SiANstyle
§ tengman
tengman - "hard"man
§ VaN
lil ol' elmo in Mapleland
§ VeN -[OLD]-
Venetia's (NEW new & not-so) pinkified blog
§ Wani
she has one knee to propose on
§ xiNch -[OLD]-
the female Finch (of "Just Shoot Me!") Xin-Ci

Site Seeing...

«The Bing Crosby Internet Museum»
Steven Lewis' tribute to the greatest crooner who ever sang
«Michael Holliday»
My favourite crooner after Bing! I want the 3-CD set for my b'day ~~but it's too expensive...~~ and yay! it's mine dee - cheap cheap only from eBay
«This is Gordon Macrae!»
Patrick Fullerton's tribute to one of the better baritones I've heard
«Jo Stafford»
My favourite female songstress! A voice so pure and angelic, yet imbued with so much emotion, too bad she lived in another era and grew gemuk in the end
«Dick Haymes»
Soothingly smooth velvety crooner
«Matt Monro»
A must listen to singer! Sang theme song for James Bond's "From Russia With Love"
«Perry Como»
Lush ballady baritone with a few cute numbers to his "Papa Loves Mambo" name
«Fred Astaire»
Slick smooth dapper singer/tap-dancer who personifies the Art-Deco Era
«Lee Morse»
Multi-talented vocalist whose style was decades ahead of her time
«Rick Astley»
Back to the 80's with this solid-voiced singer!
«Dismuke's»
An intro to turn of the 20th century music. Check out "Dismuke's Hit of the Week"
«Red Hot Jazz»
early jazz + full song clips!
«Wayback Machine»
let the 'Internet Archive Wayback Machine' present the WWW as it was from 1996-present